I am sitting at my room, listening to the Tori Amos' song.
"...And sometimes I think you want me to touch you
Well, how can I when you build the Great Wall around you
In your eyes I saw a future together
Oh you just look away in the distance..."
Enjoying the lyrics with beautiful melody is the best entertainment for me. I can feel the charm of literature. The lyrics are actually a poetry to reveal a thought of the writer.
Long time ago, I couldn't grasp any feeling from any forms of writing, because I disliked words. When I was about 6 or 7 year-old, I struggled to NOT learn any languages. I didn't like words, they were boring. I didn't like reading and writing, too. What could I write about? I had no any ideas. What I liked most was drawing. I could freehand draw a comic figure to wow grownups. I tried to take 5 hours to draw the scenery in the windows of my bedroom by pencil sketch. I had patience to do drawing, I just didn't like words. So, I never attempted to read even one story book or write a 100-word composition. Words were boring for me!
One day in my 10-year old, I discovered a small rectangular stuff at my parents' bedroom. It seemed to be an extremely strange stuff for me. I took it to my room and studied that stuff. I found an on/off button, two wheels and an analogue display. I initially thought it was a thermometer. I saw a vertical long and thin red line stopped on another vertical short and thin black line. That short black line was the second line next to the number 90. I guessed, that line meant 92. "Is it 92 degree?" I thought, "No. It's impossible for any creatures to survive in such hot environment." I tried to switch the on/off button, "Sa...sa..." I heard this annoying sound for a while. What was that rectangular stuff? I still didn't have any ideas. I tried to turn one of the wheels, the red line moved, the annoying "Sa...sa...as" sound changed to be a piece of music then, I heard someone was singing that,
"...I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder..."
I eventually understood, that weird rectangular stuff was a radio. I was just a 10-year old boy, I had never seen radio before. I naturally followed the voice to sing the song. This was one of my unforgettable feeling in my childhood.
The song was quite attractive. The lyrics writer dug out the feeling of hundred thousands of lonely-hearts, I was the one of them. I wanted to know the name of it, but how?
Luckily, I have got an extraordinary memory. I used that small part of lyrics, "I'm driving around in my car" to search on Google. Wow, I found it! It was Lemon Tree, sung by Fools Garden. I sang the song again and again, I felt it, I really felt the charm of words, it could only be felt by heart, not eyes. After then, I fell in love with poems, poetry and novels.
Since I have started reading literature, I didn't resist to learn languages anymore. And, I could feel, something inside my heart has been being changed, changing to a positive side. I could see the different world.